Late Night Activity and Vagrant Recaps
Jul. 9th, 2007 03:18 amIt's quite late. Past three in the morning it is. There's either an animal or person outside my house, so in lieu of going to bed, I'm sitting on my couch with a wakizashi.
First it fucked with the trash can, and I heard it half an hour ago and again as I typed this sentence. Then it was in front of the bay window around the garden, and I thought I heard animal tags or something. Then I swear I heard the mailbox on our house.
The cat was staring fixedly out the window for about half an hour. She just now left it. She's not a sit-still-and-stare cat unless she sees something.
This isn't helping my home invasion phobia, let me tell you what. Especially since our land line is in the process of being reconnected. This makes for a panicky Ashley. Panicky Ashley wants weapon and alarm system on kthx. Tempted to wake Brian up to get him to turn the alarm on, but he has to be at work in about four hours.
Seriously. It'll be light in about three hours. If I go to sleep now, I'll have nightmares. I don't think I will be able to get to sleep, though. Not with the phobia triggers bouncing all around inside my head.
I'd feel better if there wasn't a great bloody bay window on the ground floor right behind me, but I'd feel worse if I were all the way upstairs trying to fall asleep.
I've always had problems with home invasion. The idea that I'm not safe anywhere, that even my own territory isn't really mine because anyone can invade it and violate that space at any time... it's something I've always had a problem with. It got worse after the thing with that guy living in my parents' garage. I actually ended up talking about it tonight with a friend.
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Now you know about my crazy home invasion phobia, and why I've had trouble getting rid of it.
First it fucked with the trash can, and I heard it half an hour ago and again as I typed this sentence. Then it was in front of the bay window around the garden, and I thought I heard animal tags or something. Then I swear I heard the mailbox on our house.
The cat was staring fixedly out the window for about half an hour. She just now left it. She's not a sit-still-and-stare cat unless she sees something.
This isn't helping my home invasion phobia, let me tell you what. Especially since our land line is in the process of being reconnected. This makes for a panicky Ashley. Panicky Ashley wants weapon and alarm system on kthx. Tempted to wake Brian up to get him to turn the alarm on, but he has to be at work in about four hours.
Seriously. It'll be light in about three hours. If I go to sleep now, I'll have nightmares. I don't think I will be able to get to sleep, though. Not with the phobia triggers bouncing all around inside my head.
I'd feel better if there wasn't a great bloody bay window on the ground floor right behind me, but I'd feel worse if I were all the way upstairs trying to fall asleep.
I've always had problems with home invasion. The idea that I'm not safe anywhere, that even my own territory isn't really mine because anyone can invade it and violate that space at any time... it's something I've always had a problem with. It got worse after the thing with that guy living in my parents' garage. I actually ended up talking about it tonight with a friend.
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Now you know about my crazy home invasion phobia, and why I've had trouble getting rid of it.