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Home sucks. All of them. If they didn't, no one would leave.
I miss being able to wake up in the morning and believe for a few seconds that something good may just happen today.
Most of all, I'm sick of having to spend all my time alone 'in character' as my RP characters, just so I don't have to remember where I am. Hours and hours spent as one person or another. Sitting in my parents' living room talking to myself in my head because no one else gives a damn about what I have to say.
Do you know what it's like to have Dawn Valerian as your only friend? Your only ally? To hear her laughter in the back of my mind at every abuse, every insult slung toward me from my mother? At every bald-faced lie? She's all I have, and she and I both know it. No one else can help me. No one else knows what to do. Only she and I have the power to deal with what currently serves as my reality.
Wah. I whine more. *throws in a cut tag to keep other people's LJs clean of her angst*
I miss being able to wake up in the morning and believe for a few seconds that something good may just happen today.
Most of all, I'm sick of having to spend all my time alone 'in character' as my RP characters, just so I don't have to remember where I am. Hours and hours spent as one person or another. Sitting in my parents' living room talking to myself in my head because no one else gives a damn about what I have to say.
Do you know what it's like to have Dawn Valerian as your only friend? Your only ally? To hear her laughter in the back of my mind at every abuse, every insult slung toward me from my mother? At every bald-faced lie? She's all I have, and she and I both know it. No one else can help me. No one else knows what to do. Only she and I have the power to deal with what currently serves as my reality.
Wah. I whine more. *throws in a cut tag to keep other people's LJs clean of her angst*
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Date: 2005-05-22 11:38 am (UTC)From:my parents fight incessantly. every two seconds it's FU and get out my house, etc. at least mom works now so there is some peace.
take walks. go to stores. talk to people. buy stuffed animals and hug them. take a course on stuffed animal construction and make a stuffed brian ^_^
if you know of places around you that have flowers, go smell them. i am the lilac hunter. none escape me within a few mile radius.
and you must maintain a positive outlook..for if you do not, the focusing crystal you're going to find on your dig this summer (for my future lightsaber) will be corrupted by dark side energies.