xenologer: (everybody's aunt)
There is another problem with PayPal. They are censoring ebook retailers because they don't want their service being used for certain kinds of erotica.

PayPal is huge, and the revenue streams for thousands of independent artists and authors get funneled through it. If they start telling us what we can and cannot put out there to sell, what we can and cannot buy, well . . . if you can't see there's a huge problem there, I honestly don't know if I can help you, and you might want to just go lie down for a while and hope the denseness passes. (...)

This is not just about incestuous underage dog-rape porn, okay? Who the hell would rally to protect that? Nobody. Which is the problem, here. People glance at the issue and they see indefensible garbage, and they move on.

That is a smokescreen! This is not about that crap. This is about people with no familiarity with genre fiction, with erotica, with the outer boundaries of sexual fantasy, being allowed to dictate how we express ourselves. This is about those people deciding where the line gets drawn between okay and not okay. This is not a new thing, though this crackdown is new, a new push against "obscene" content that previously nobody gave a shit about. They've already proven that they decide where the line is and that they can move it anytime they like; that they are doing this represents a shifting of that line. This is about being told what we can and cannot publish, and can and cannot buy. It affects everyone. And that should scare the shit out of you.

And while we're at it, let's discuss that indefensible incestuous underage dog-rape porn. It's sick, and I don't write it, and I don't want to read it, and if a given indie self-pub outlet wants to say "we will not allow people to publish that through us" I suppose I am very grudgingly okay with that. But if a bank – and that is really how PayPal works, as a bank for e-commerce – wants to tell me that I cannot buy that stuff, THAT IS NOT OKAY. I will spend my money any goddamned fucking way I see fit. They have crossed the line. We need to unfuck this situation.

A lot of the erotica described here is not my cup of tea, but Indiana Members' Credit Union doesn't tell me I can't subscribe to online porn or buy bondage tape, so I am not sure why PayPal should get any more leeway without any complaint from customers.
xenologer: (arggghh)
I overdrafted again. Three times. I mis-estimated the size of Brian's gas tank, and I didn't check all my subsequent expenses with my online balance that day because I was getting handfasted. But now I'm over $100 in the hole while I wait for my paycheck to go through.

I kind of hate that CAC doesn't direct-deposit, because now it means I just have to sit and wait for the bank to give me my money so that I can go buy things without having yet another overdraft charge. Oh, well. I set some cash aside for Brian's lunches last week, and it's still here. So I can get something to eat today while I wait for National City to take forever to deposit my check.
xenologer: (arggghh)
I overdrafted again. Three times. I mis-estimated the size of Brian's gas tank, and I didn't check all my subsequent expenses with my online balance that day because I was getting handfasted. But now I'm over $100 in the hole while I wait for my paycheck to go through.

I kind of hate that CAC doesn't direct-deposit, because now it means I just have to sit and wait for the bank to give me my money so that I can go buy things without having yet another overdraft charge. Oh, well. I set some cash aside for Brian's lunches last week, and it's still here. So I can get something to eat today while I wait for National City to take forever to deposit my check.
xenologer: (arggghh)
I overdrafted again. Three times. I mis-estimated the size of Brian's gas tank, and I didn't check all my subsequent expenses with my online balance that day because I was getting handfasted. But now I'm over $100 in the hole while I wait for my paycheck to go through.

I kind of hate that CAC doesn't direct-deposit, because now it means I just have to sit and wait for the bank to give me my money so that I can go buy things without having yet another overdraft charge. Oh, well. I set some cash aside for Brian's lunches last week, and it's still here. So I can get something to eat today while I wait for National City to take forever to deposit my check.
xenologer: (Default)
1. [livejournal.com profile] archmage_brian and I need to figure out the particulars of getting a domestic partnership in Indiana. We don't know how much it'll cost or what the timeframe on getting all that processed is likely to be, and we need to figure it out without having to pay a lawyer to ask if we have to pay a lawyer.

2. Sinus infection causes asthma flare-up causes no sleep causes inability to recover from sinus infection. GAH FUCK. These things cause time off work, causing a decrease in funds, causing lessened ability to go to a doctor to get an albuterol inhaler prescription causing worsening problem and potentially more time off work. Damn it. I didn't take this much time off when I had a damn head injury. I took three days off last week. I can't keep doing that.

3. There's something fucked up about being told to "join reality" by a man who's been in the miltiary for thirty years and has never done anything else, but saw on Fox News that liberals are out of touch with reality and therefore knows it must be true. I think the military is a more insular environment than talking to people door-to-door, kthx. Maybe I'm not the one who should come join the reality the rest of us are living in.
xenologer: (Default)
1. [livejournal.com profile] archmage_brian and I need to figure out the particulars of getting a domestic partnership in Indiana. We don't know how much it'll cost or what the timeframe on getting all that processed is likely to be, and we need to figure it out without having to pay a lawyer to ask if we have to pay a lawyer.

2. Sinus infection causes asthma flare-up causes no sleep causes inability to recover from sinus infection. GAH FUCK. These things cause time off work, causing a decrease in funds, causing lessened ability to go to a doctor to get an albuterol inhaler prescription causing worsening problem and potentially more time off work. Damn it. I didn't take this much time off when I had a damn head injury. I took three days off last week. I can't keep doing that.

3. There's something fucked up about being told to "join reality" by a man who's been in the miltiary for thirty years and has never done anything else, but saw on Fox News that liberals are out of touch with reality and therefore knows it must be true. I think the military is a more insular environment than talking to people door-to-door, kthx. Maybe I'm not the one who should come join the reality the rest of us are living in.
xenologer: (Default)
1. [livejournal.com profile] archmage_brian and I need to figure out the particulars of getting a domestic partnership in Indiana. We don't know how much it'll cost or what the timeframe on getting all that processed is likely to be, and we need to figure it out without having to pay a lawyer to ask if we have to pay a lawyer.

2. Sinus infection causes asthma flare-up causes no sleep causes inability to recover from sinus infection. GAH FUCK. These things cause time off work, causing a decrease in funds, causing lessened ability to go to a doctor to get an albuterol inhaler prescription causing worsening problem and potentially more time off work. Damn it. I didn't take this much time off when I had a damn head injury. I took three days off last week. I can't keep doing that.

3. There's something fucked up about being told to "join reality" by a man who's been in the miltiary for thirty years and has never done anything else, but saw on Fox News that liberals are out of touch with reality and therefore knows it must be true. I think the military is a more insular environment than talking to people door-to-door, kthx. Maybe I'm not the one who should come join the reality the rest of us are living in.
xenologer: (we dine)
Just a note that I've updated this entry to include a note at the bottom about how all the nasty and deceptive practices they have are officially and legally now Not Cool.

More details are here:

The "free credit report" advertised non-stop on cable television, it bears repeating, isn't free at all. The law calls for the Federal Trade Commission to issue new rules that will force free credit report advertisers to inform consumers that the only place for a free credit report is AnnualCreditReport.com.

Television and radio ads will also be required to include a pretty deflating statement: "This is not the free credit report provided for by Federal law."

Take that, CIC.
xenologer: (we dine)
Just a note that I've updated this entry to include a note at the bottom about how all the nasty and deceptive practices they have are officially and legally now Not Cool.

More details are here:

The "free credit report" advertised non-stop on cable television, it bears repeating, isn't free at all. The law calls for the Federal Trade Commission to issue new rules that will force free credit report advertisers to inform consumers that the only place for a free credit report is AnnualCreditReport.com.

Television and radio ads will also be required to include a pretty deflating statement: "This is not the free credit report provided for by Federal law."

Take that, CIC.
xenologer: (we dine)
Just a note that I've updated this entry to include a note at the bottom about how all the nasty and deceptive practices they have are officially and legally now Not Cool.

More details are here:

The "free credit report" advertised non-stop on cable television, it bears repeating, isn't free at all. The law calls for the Federal Trade Commission to issue new rules that will force free credit report advertisers to inform consumers that the only place for a free credit report is AnnualCreditReport.com.

Television and radio ads will also be required to include a pretty deflating statement: "This is not the free credit report provided for by Federal law."

Take that, CIC.
xenologer: (Mello)
Thanks to ievil_spock_47i for posting this. Go see his journal to see a couple of great images that I didn't reproduce here.



Cut to spare those of you who're all warm and fuzzy this time of year. )
xenologer: (Mello)
Thanks to ievil_spock_47i for posting this. Go see his journal to see a couple of great images that I didn't reproduce here.



Cut to spare those of you who're all warm and fuzzy this time of year. )
xenologer: (Mello)
Thanks to ievil_spock_47i for posting this. Go see his journal to see a couple of great images that I didn't reproduce here.



Cut to spare those of you who're all warm and fuzzy this time of year. )
xenologer: (frost_icons)
Who's that girl who slept all day out in the poolhouse (after smuggling out hamburger buns because there was nothing else to eat) but could still hear her parents yelling loud enough for the whole neighborhood to listen in? Whose parents can afford $70 of booze for Christmas but don't have the money to buy half a gallon of milk for me, or a loaf of bread for any of us? Who can't wait to be alone in the house just to have some peace? Is it the same person who dreads getting up in the morning because she knows finding something for breakfast is going to be just a little harder than it should be?
Oh, right.
I remember this person. Haven't seen her in a while. I don't think I really like the old me.
*goes to hang out in her room where she can stay in character for hours*
*finally forgets for a while where she is and why she hates it*
xenologer: (frost_icons)
Who's that girl who slept all day out in the poolhouse (after smuggling out hamburger buns because there was nothing else to eat) but could still hear her parents yelling loud enough for the whole neighborhood to listen in? Whose parents can afford $70 of booze for Christmas but don't have the money to buy half a gallon of milk for me, or a loaf of bread for any of us? Who can't wait to be alone in the house just to have some peace? Is it the same person who dreads getting up in the morning because she knows finding something for breakfast is going to be just a little harder than it should be?
Oh, right.
I remember this person. Haven't seen her in a while. I don't think I really like the old me.
*goes to hang out in her room where she can stay in character for hours*
*finally forgets for a while where she is and why she hates it*
xenologer: (Default)
I'll be spending eight weeks this summer at an NSF-funded archaeological field school. They only chose 14 people, and they picked me.
Also nice is the $300/week stipend. 300x8=2400. That's a lot of money to take off of next year's college costs. That may just save my ass. It might get me ahead enough that if I keep my wits about me, I can stay ahead of my bills.

Fantastic. Also, Strawtown, IN is a hell of a lot closer to Dayton than MI is. Closer to Brian=good.
xenologer: (Default)
I'll be spending eight weeks this summer at an NSF-funded archaeological field school. They only chose 14 people, and they picked me.
Also nice is the $300/week stipend. 300x8=2400. That's a lot of money to take off of next year's college costs. That may just save my ass. It might get me ahead enough that if I keep my wits about me, I can stay ahead of my bills.

Fantastic. Also, Strawtown, IN is a hell of a lot closer to Dayton than MI is. Closer to Brian=good.
xenologer: (Default)
I'm so tired. This is such a nightmare, and there's nothing anyone can do to help. Brian is really supportive, but no one else seems to care what happens to me here, not even my parents.
Is this what it's like to be on your own? It's not that people can't help you, but they're all so bitter about how hard they had it that they'll never help anyone again.

I deserve this, and I don't want to lose him. I'm not even fighting any more out of passion. I'm fighting because I could never forgive myself if I gave up.
I'm tired, and I don't want anything anymore. I'm skirting too close to the edge of despair, and the only thing keeping me going is from moment to moment knowing that I'll see him again.

If I fail, those moments will end.

I'm going to work an extra three hours tomorrow, since Brian's father will be visiting and we wouldn't be able to hang out anyway.
Three hours will mean I've earned 97.5 dollars this week. All of it will be going to feed the beast, so that maybe the beast won't eat me instead.

I'm just worn, like every time I walk into someone's office I know what's going to happen. I put on a brave face, get the skin flayed off of me, and walk out knowing that it won't be over until something breaks. I don't know what that will be, but until it happens, I need to go on.
xenologer: (Default)
I'm so tired. This is such a nightmare, and there's nothing anyone can do to help. Brian is really supportive, but no one else seems to care what happens to me here, not even my parents.
Is this what it's like to be on your own? It's not that people can't help you, but they're all so bitter about how hard they had it that they'll never help anyone again.

I deserve this, and I don't want to lose him. I'm not even fighting any more out of passion. I'm fighting because I could never forgive myself if I gave up.
I'm tired, and I don't want anything anymore. I'm skirting too close to the edge of despair, and the only thing keeping me going is from moment to moment knowing that I'll see him again.

If I fail, those moments will end.

I'm going to work an extra three hours tomorrow, since Brian's father will be visiting and we wouldn't be able to hang out anyway.
Three hours will mean I've earned 97.5 dollars this week. All of it will be going to feed the beast, so that maybe the beast won't eat me instead.

I'm just worn, like every time I walk into someone's office I know what's going to happen. I put on a brave face, get the skin flayed off of me, and walk out knowing that it won't be over until something breaks. I don't know what that will be, but until it happens, I need to go on.

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