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Fear of not eating. Fear leads to anger, anger leads to hate, hate leads to suffering. Etc.
So I will do my best to serenely subsist on rice until we can pay for both bills and food. We're supposedly going shopping tonight, but I don't know which of us can absorb the initial cost of groceries for four people after paying rent and with the bills just taken care of this morning. I'm not using my credit card again, because I have enough debt as it is, thank you very much universe.
I'm just really pissed at my financial situation right now. Why in the hell do I feel guilty that I didn't pick up extra hours at a job I hate so that I can help support a household of grown adult people? It's not my obligation, and it's not Brian's either. But guess whose names are on the bills?
I just need to chill the fuck out. This is almost over.
Problem is I've been telling myself that for weeks now, and "over" hasn't come.
So I will do my best to serenely subsist on rice until we can pay for both bills and food. We're supposedly going shopping tonight, but I don't know which of us can absorb the initial cost of groceries for four people after paying rent and with the bills just taken care of this morning. I'm not using my credit card again, because I have enough debt as it is, thank you very much universe.
I'm just really pissed at my financial situation right now. Why in the hell do I feel guilty that I didn't pick up extra hours at a job I hate so that I can help support a household of grown adult people? It's not my obligation, and it's not Brian's either. But guess whose names are on the bills?
I just need to chill the fuck out. This is almost over.
Problem is I've been telling myself that for weeks now, and "over" hasn't come.
